Requiescat in Pacem (copyright 1983 Kerri-Ellen Kelly)

Requiescat in Pacem (copyright 1983 Kerri-Ellen Kelly)

Through all the corners
of my mind,
I wander
Turning, with a wond'ring glance,
around
I stumble 'cross the tarnished baubles
that mark the successes
of my past
Suddenly, I come to the wall
which my mind has erected over the past few months
Examining its construction,
I finally move to plug up the tiny hole
which I had previously
considered unimportant
Yet the pressure is too great
to withstand the feeble stopper
which is myself
Like that dike, long ago,
my wall now crumbles
unrestrained
Technicolor zephyrs and
a deafening cacophony
of dissonant noises
come bursting out,
refreshing my numbed memory
with pain
unsuccessfully suppressed
Dragging me down
with vicious intensity
through a
glistening, sucking
maw
into the
darkness of solitude,
the black agony of
betrayal
I am
digested by
an ebony whirlpool of
unrelieved depression
Subsiding beneath
the crashing swirling waves,
I pass from all
knowledge and comprehension
Rest in sorrow
Rest in peace